Depression Society MKVI

I feel exactly the same. I can't go out I'm so worried about spies, I can't sleep because they'll creep into my room and do stuff to me. I took the bin out and the neighbor was there watching me for the government. I have no idea how much of this is in my head and how much is real. I'm so scared constantly but I'm also terrified of telling anyone. I told the GP some stuff and all they gave me was some lame antihistamines like they're meant to help

My medication was recently increased too, no help there either.

Oh god I could have written that word for freaking word. If you ever want to talk to someone going through the same thing you can always PM me

Didn't go well.
Sat in the library around 3 hours but my concentration was just not there at all. Will just have to try and really get my head round sometime next week without pressure to answer questions, will just have to tell lecturer I couldn't do it if he asks.

Me too! Sorry your sister has stole your bed!
I would upset too. Hope you're feeling ok now.

I have so many things to do, if nothing else reply to the PMs I have on here, or the stacks of quotes, but I can't seem to be able to, unless I class them as 'urgent' (usually in helping someone else urgently).

Can I buy some motivation somewhere? No?

Time to go and play a game I think...

Keep on in there, that is all you can really do in this situation. Hopefully you'll be able to tell someone how you are feeling when you need too.

I tend to listen to really loud music which blocks out most of the crap. Maybe that will help you? If you ever want to chat about anything feel free to PM me.

Edit: On the note of others, the emergency services will help you if you want them to, you may not be having a physical heart attack, doesn't mean the mental issues are not as severe as that. However, I know certain people have objections to emergency professionals, so will try and offer any advice I can other than calling them as well

I have so many things to do, if nothing else reply to the PMs I have on here, or the stacks of quotes, but I can't seem to be able to, unless I class them as 'urgent' (usually in helping someone else urgently).

Can I buy some motivation somewhere? No?

Time to go and play a game I think...

What game? I've had someone from school bugging me to play him at tf2 for the past few days....can I find the motivation? hell no.

Ah man TF2 is the absolute worst thing to play when you're tired... You spend 90% of the game respawning after not turning fast enough or getting stickied.

Gonna clean my make up brushes and then sleep I think. CBA to be awake any longer.

You should be very happy .

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On a slightly different note, I just found someone on Reddit who goes to my university. And now I'm freaking the **** out because I've posted lots of personal stuff on Reddit, including a bit about SH. OH MY GOD A COMPLETE STRANGER THAT I MAY END UP RUNNING INTO AT SOME POINT HAS ACCESS TO A WHOLE LOT OF INFORMATION ABOUT ME. ASDFGHJKL.

I was the same to my first BF. He dumped me three days before I went to my friends funeral and had the balls to say it was because I was frigid and not worth staying faithful to.

And, I found some people on tumblr from my uni the other day and had a similar freak out then I remembered I'm almost totally anonymous, apart from the fact that I post a lot of cheerleading photos. Lol.

What a knob he was

I'm definitely not anonymous on Reddit, I've posted pictures of my face, details about my flat/flatmates (mostly rants about how they're pissing me off ), stuff like that. Not my name, but hey. If you wanted to look on the bright side, it could be that we'll make friends. Maybe.

Oh he was! And then he expected me to be friendly to him when I came back home etc. Oh and he got annoyed when I went on a date three weeks after we broke up (apparently I broke some kind of rule going on a date with his ex friend who I didn't know even knew him until we saw him in the pub... where he was going on a date with a girl I knew... men )

Worst thing was I worked with him for 2 months after we broke and then again that Christmas until he left just before NYE, yet his photo was up in the staff room last time I was there 1 year later XD

Feel like crying.