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Original post by Zee Zee
Well not having a girlfriend isn't the worst thing in the world. But because you haven't got any friends (and the one you did have doesn't want to talk to you) I am guessing that there is no one you can speak to or confide in and that is horrible 
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I hope you get into uni and maybe that will be a new start for you
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. I hope you get into uni and maybe that will be a new start for you
.She was the only person I trusted with my secrets. I don't know how she just turned against me. I did hear yesterday that she and her boyfriend had an argument, and I have a nasty feeling it was because of me. Me and her are in the same ICT class, and yesterday she didn't even speak to me once, nor did I. She did text me to ask if I was in school. So I don't know what's happening
. And another friend is also not speaking to me, because I didn't want to talk to her when I was angry, as I didn't want to say something that I would later regret.And yeah I hope it is. Can't take this for much longer. I really want to see how my mum would cope if she wasn't allowed to talk to/text anyone on the phone, which is what my parents did to me when I was younger.
Original post by Sabertooth
Day 20 with 2 hours or less sleep a night (or none at all in the case of last night).
Actually holding up surprisingly well, I can still kind of type (although keep making mistakes), I managed to go for a run today despite having a terrible terrible cold, I'm not hungry but that's ok, I have written precisely zero words for my essay but still I thought I'd be more of a mess. Amazing what the human mind can do, eh?
Actually holding up surprisingly well, I can still kind of type (although keep making mistakes), I managed to go for a run today despite having a terrible terrible cold, I'm not hungry but that's ok, I have written precisely zero words for my essay but still I thought I'd be more of a mess. Amazing what the human mind can do, eh?
Please just go to A+E, it is so so unhealthy for you to not be sleeping properly, you need the rest.
Want to post more about how I've been feeling but it would probably just get deleted again... 
Will try and keep it vaguer this time. Things really aren't good, and I don't know what to do about it. Went in to one lecture this week (didn't go at all the last week or so), constant bad thoughts, which I've also sometimes carried out, have avoided all emails from uni/family, feelings of panic at the thought of doing even small stuff like having a shower.
Need to make another appointment with the psychiatrist, and maybe hit the GP for some anti-anxiety meds.
Will try and keep it vaguer this time. Things really aren't good, and I don't know what to do about it. Went in to one lecture this week (didn't go at all the last week or so), constant bad thoughts, which I've also sometimes carried out, have avoided all emails from uni/family, feelings of panic at the thought of doing even small stuff like having a shower.Need to make another appointment with the psychiatrist, and maybe hit the GP for some anti-anxiety meds.
Original post by littleshambles
even if you try and remove your expectations, essentially pushing them away before they push you away wouldn't help, so it's not a good idea to discharge yourself or anything imo. just tell them how you feel and ask them to inform you about what you can expect to happen in the future and what you can't (which is what they SHOULD be doing, you shouldn't have the room to feel this uncertain about whether they are going to help you
). but being open about how you feel is the only way to begin to get the concerns assuaged. i hope things start to get clearer soon
even if you try and remove your expectations, essentially pushing them away before they push you away wouldn't help, so it's not a good idea to discharge yourself or anything imo. just tell them how you feel and ask them to inform you about what you can expect to happen in the future and what you can't (which is what they SHOULD be doing, you shouldn't have the room to feel this uncertain about whether they are going to help you
). but being open about how you feel is the only way to begin to get the concerns assuaged. i hope things start to get clearer soon Thank you
I talked to my therapist on the phone today and he says we will discuss it at our next meeting. My CPN is still on the silent treatment though, and apparently I am having a meeting with the Psychiatrist soon so I will have to see what he has to say. But thank you, everything you said made loads of sense, the most sense that I've heard in a while anyway.Original post by superwolf
Want to post more about how I've been feeling but it would probably just get deleted again... Will try and keep it vaguer this time. Things really aren't good, and I don't know what to do about it. Went in to one lecture this week (didn't go at all the last week or so), constant bad thoughts, which I've also sometimes carried out, have avoided all emails from uni/family, feelings of panic at the thought of doing even small stuff like having a shower.
Need to make another appointment with the psychiatrist, and maybe hit the GP for some anti-anxiety meds.
Will try and keep it vaguer this time. Things really aren't good, and I don't know what to do about it. Went in to one lecture this week (didn't go at all the last week or so), constant bad thoughts, which I've also sometimes carried out, have avoided all emails from uni/family, feelings of panic at the thought of doing even small stuff like having a shower.Need to make another appointment with the psychiatrist, and maybe hit the GP for some anti-anxiety meds.
We are all here to talk if you need to.
Original post by Anonymous
Yeah, you're right, they're just busy I guess.
Aww good luck! If you want any help let me know.
Aww good luck! If you want any help let me know.
I'm only going to start it tomorrow but thanks
Original post by kiss_me_now9
Please just go to A+E, it is so so unhealthy for you to not be sleeping properly, you need the rest.
I went to the GP 4 or 5 times and got no where so I don't think a&e would help much either. Seeing a psychiatrist in 12 days so I only need to survive that long.
Original post by superwolf
Want to post more about how I've been feeling but it would probably just get deleted again... Will try and keep it vaguer this time. Things really aren't good, and I don't know what to do about it. Went in to one lecture this week (didn't go at all the last week or so), constant bad thoughts, which I've also sometimes carried out, have avoided all emails from uni/family, feelings of panic at the thought of doing even small stuff like having a shower.
Need to make another appointment with the psychiatrist, and maybe hit the GP for some anti-anxiety meds.
Will try and keep it vaguer this time. Things really aren't good, and I don't know what to do about it. Went in to one lecture this week (didn't go at all the last week or so), constant bad thoughts, which I've also sometimes carried out, have avoided all emails from uni/family, feelings of panic at the thought of doing even small stuff like having a shower.Need to make another appointment with the psychiatrist, and maybe hit the GP for some anti-anxiety meds.
Yeah good plan, go to the GP and try to get some diazepam. Then at least you can fulfill that life ambition of taking it.
Has anyone here dropped out of uni for part of a year and then actually been successful when they went back? I'm thinking about it, but the whole thing of just ****ing up again is on my mind, as is the problem of living at home.
Original post by bullettheory We are all here to talk if you need to.
We are all here to talk if you need to.Thanks.
Been failing to post on here much at all recently, but talking to people would probably do me good.Original post by Sabertooth
Yeah good plan, go to the GP and try to get some diazepam. Then at least you can fulfill that life ambition of taking it.
You know what? I think that *some* people have a guilty conscience about not handing over the happy pills in their friend's time of need, and that's why they can't sleep.
Original post by superwolf
Thanks. Been failing to post on here much at all recently, but talking to people would probably do me good.
Been failing to post on here much at all recently, but talking to people would probably do me good.Well you can always PM me if you need to.
Original post by ZZ9
Has anyone here dropped out of uni for part of a year and then actually been successful when they went back? I'm thinking about it, but the whole thing of just ****ing up again is on my mind, as is the problem of living at home.
I took two years off (was only supposed to be one, but at the end of that year I was still nowhere near being able to return yet). And it did sort of help - for the first couple of months back I did pretty good, but then after that my depression returned and I've been having problems with attendance/not keeping up with the work etc. Still, my marks have been alright so far (a combination of some surprisingly good ones and also some which fall a fair bit below my usual standards), and if I can just get through this particularly bad period I'm hoping that I'll be able to finish the year (studying part-time definitely makes that seem a whole lot more feasible).
If you're eligible for benefits then there's no reason why you can't keep living away from home (although when I eventually moved in with my sister I found having her around to be a great help, much better than living with people who I'm not so close to).
Original post by superwolf
You know what? I think that *some* people have a guilty conscience about not handing over the happy pills in their friend's time of need, and that's why they can't sleep.
I have no idea what you're talking about
Any guilt on their part would almost certainly be quashed by the terrible, terrible cold they have right now
Original post by superwolf
I took two years off (was only supposed to be one, but at the end of that year I was still nowhere near being able to return yet). And it did sort of help - for the first couple of months back I did pretty good, but then after that my depression returned and I've been having problems with attendance/not keeping up with the work etc. Still, my marks have been alright so far (a combination of some surprisingly good ones and also some which fall a fair bit below my usual standards), and if I can just get through this particularly bad period I'm hoping that I'll be able to finish the year (studying part-time definitely makes that seem a whole lot more feasible).
If you're eligible for benefits then there's no reason why you can't keep living away from home (although when I eventually moved in with my sister I found having her around to be a great help, much better than living with people who I'm not so close to).
If you're eligible for benefits then there's no reason why you can't keep living away from home (although when I eventually moved in with my sister I found having her around to be a great help, much better than living with people who I'm not so close to).
Regarding you taking a year out, would you mind if i PMd you a few quesions about it? I'm very close to suspending my studies for a year under advice for a lot of people, and I just had some questions.
Feel like hitting the shower for a good cry .. once again for no reason at all!
Cool story I know
Don't really know why I posted it if I'm honest - whatevs!
Hope your all having a good week x
Cool story I know
Don't really know why I posted it if I'm honest - whatevs!
Hope your all having a good week x
Original post by Sabertooth
I have no idea what you're talking about
Any guilt on their part would almost certainly be quashed by the terrible, terrible cold they have right now
Any guilt on their part would almost certainly be quashed by the terrible, terrible cold they have right now
He grabs and devours, he kicks me in the showers, kicks me in the showers, and he grabs and devours...
Original post by bullettheory
Regarding you taking a year out, would you mind if i PMd you a few quesions about it? I'm very close to suspending my studies for a year under advice for a lot of people, and I just had some questions.
Sure, go ahead.
um lol the gp is **** all like a specialist its like saying the gp didnt help u with ur cancer so why go to an oncologist. i get that you dont want to get aectioned or admitted i seriously do but pushong yourself like this is only making it more likely omething worse will happen later and you wont have ea choice. the gp can do jack aexpertise biases him to underestimating aeveritynd his limited
oops typing on phone. from the hospital #insight
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Original post by littleshambles
um lol the gp is **** all like a specialist its like saying the gp didnt help u with ur cancer so why go to an oncologist. i get that you dont want to get aectioned or admitted i seriously do but pushong yourself like this is only making it more likely omething worse will happen later and you wont have ea choice. the gp can do jack aexpertise biases him to underestimating aeveritynd his limited
Is this directed at me?
I know something bad is going to happen, I know that, as I have no idea anymore what's real and it's worrying me, but honestly I can't see any escape from the situation. I have been to the GP so many times, they're not going to hurry up the referral and I've tried a bunch of drugs so there doesn't seem to be anything else they can do. I would feel a right retard going to a&e and saying I can't sleep. Seeing as I'm not standing right immediately on the edge right about to kill myself there doesn't seem to be anything they can do either. It's like 2 walls and nowhere else to turn.
Original post by littleshambles
oops typing on phone. from the hospital #insight
#insightYou're in the hospital?
Hope everything's ok.omg i get to tick another box off BENZO BINGO
