It's perfectly natural to have these thoughts about life in general, the majority of people seem to go through a phase where the thought of giving half of your life away to the corporate working world which doesn't care about you is just downright depressing. All throughout school we're made to believe by teachers that we're gifted, we're intelligent, we'll get somewhere in life, and then you leave your childhood and school behind and suddenly everyone else is just as gifted and intelligent as you. Oh, to go back to childhood where you weren't pressured constantly into joining a job which takes up most of your time, creativity and lust for life.
But guess what? It does get better.
I've been through the phase myself. I felt like my job was eating into my personality and making me another boring 9-5 drone, I felt like it was sapping my creativity, and eating into my free time - why the hell should I have a job?! Around this time, I moved departments - I now work in a place where:
- everyone is easy to talk to and approach with any problems
- hard work is paid attention to, praised and rewarded
- my colleagues are friendly, happy and good company
- stress is managed in rational, calm and sensible ways
- people understand if you are too busy to take on more work
Now, I actually look forward to going to work everyday. When I come home, I feel good because I know I've put in hard work and because I receive praise, it's just awesome being able to sit back in the evenings knowing you've been productive and hard working all day. Not to mention being surrounded by fun but hardworking people. Find the right job, put in hard work and you'll feel the same. If I was unemployed, I'd feel less happy as I wouldn't feel as productive or like I was actually doing something with my day.
You won't feel like this forever. I've been there, I think a big part of it is missing the innocence and freedom of your childhood and being too scared to face a future where you have responsibilities and have to stand on your own two feet. Work can be stressful, but it can also be incredibly rewarding, and not just financially. Spread your wings, you don't have to be set on one specific career from an early age, your right path in life may still be undiscovered. Make a list of all the things you want to achieve in life - i.e travelling the world, sky diving, write and publish a novel - I find that doing this helps give you some purpose and ambition to achieve your goals and get through the day, especially when life seems so pointless and cruel.