Conflicted and Isolated= Lonelyness

I know just how you feel. I came to this country towards the end of secondary school and it wasn't fun at all. Being a fluent English speaker wasn't enough when it came to making conversation, as everyone wanted to talk about shows like Hollyoaks and Eastenders I'd never heard of, people I didn't know and music I didn't listen to. It takes a while to pick up the humour and the mentality of the people here. People will also judge somebody who appears to be a 'freshie' even if they aren't, I came from a really good private school back in my home country where the standard of living was quite high. A few kind people were friendly towards me and though that made a huge difference, it wasn't really enough.

Stay strong, don't get too self-concious because of the differences, speak out even if you think you'd sound stupid in conversation, and, I know this sounds questionable, but move yourself to a school or area where more people share your cultural background as trying to integrate with people who don't takes too long and can be a lonely and draining experience.

What religion are you part of that doesn't let you go to birthday parties? That's cos of your parents, not religion.

You don't need friends - focus on yourself first. Go to the gym, keep playing football, study hard and make a better life for yourself. Work on your self-confidence and people will come to you once you're comfortable studying/working somewhere. Talk to people in school or work and go to more extra-curricular things - it doesn't have to be a sport. 1 hour after school every week is not much time away from revision.

I agree that getting into hobbies and such makes you feel better, cause I've tried that for some months, but in the end of the day you still wanna hang out with people, but i like the idea of self improvement in self confidence and other areas. Im sure you must have a great social life, did you get involved with any activity that helped you get to know more people?