I feel like my social anxiety is ruining my life. I'm starting my second year of college in September and I haven't done any extracurricular activities since primary school. The thought of starting any scares me so much, but I know my chances of getting into university without any is very low.
The idea of going to university terrifies me, but the idea of not going or doing a third year at college makes me feel like a failure. I picked a uni course almost at random because I have no idea what I want to do, so I'm struggling to write a personal statement for a course I'm interested in but not passionate about.
I haven't made any close friends in college, and I spend all of my free time online or reading or watching tv or anything else that distracts me from real life. I'm too anxious to make or answer phone calls (unless its to family members), and I can't get a part time job because I'm too anxious to go and ask if there are job vacancies and job interviews terrify me.
I was going to counselling until December last year, and I was supposed to be referred to somewhere else, but it never happened and I'm too anxious to ask my mum about it.