When I moved into halls for my 1st year of Uni, I cried because I felt homesick and I missed my family (my mum and my dogs) . I heard that that it’s really normal to feel homesick after moving to university so I wasn’t too concerned. My mum even came up the day after I moved because I was crying on the phone to her saying I wanted to go home… she took me shopping and we ate food and she slept over for 2 days which helped so much. I went home but not every weekend, mostly just for the holidays, and my mum came to visit now and then too, and eventually a lot of my homesickness subsided but every now and then I would still feel really lonely and depressed and wanted to go home.
After spending summer at home again, being with my family every day, I’ve moved into a shared house with 2 of my friends. But yesterday I was just crying in my bed and telling my mum I wanted to go home, just like last year. I’m starting to think I have a problem now, like an unhealthy attachment or something. I’m supposed to be excited about living my own life and stuff but all I want to do is be with her. I’m only an hour and a half away but I can’t stand it. Every time I leave her I keep having these thoughts like what if she passes away, what if I don’t have much time with her left. I keep thinking about the fact I’ll be completely alone in the world with no one to care about me eventually and it makes me so sad, I can’t imagine life without her in it, she’s my best friend. That’s why I hate leaving because I feel like I’m wasting the time I could have with her. I’m crying right now as I write this, I don’t know how to cope with these feelings. I’m supposed to be going on a placement year abroad next year but I have no idea how I’m supposed to do that if I feel like this when im only an hour and a half away. I’m not sure if anyone will read this but if anyone has been through the same feelings or has some advice, please leave a reply.