I'm going to give a whole background of my life since I was like 12 so people don't just reply 'make friends!'. Since like starting high school I had a friendship group of me and two other girls but we never did ANYTHING together unless it was someone's birthday which made me feel lonely as hell anyway especially because they would do things with other friends. I've always had social anxiety of some level so I've never been able to make friends on my own. Anyway when I was 16, it was very obvious that I felt disconnected from my friends: they made fun of my interests, height, everything and they grouped up against me because they had similar interests. Also, I had had **** going on in my life, drama with my parents' relationships etc. things I NEVER would've felt comfortable talking with them about: they didn't even know my parents were divorced and they both had REALLLLLYYY perfect lives. Anyway my closest friend became obsessed with this other boy and became best friends with him and ignored me most of the time but then acted like she didn't. We stopped being friends and I was left with my one other friend but throughout college I realised there was such a maturity difference between us. Overall I think I've done like 6 things with friends since I was 12 and I'm nearly 20 now. I can never make friends anywhere I go it's like something repels people from me. I have pretty basic interests: Taylor Swift, Gilmore Girls etc. I don't know why people just don't want to be friends with me. Anyway now I'm taking a gap year from uni (I dropped out it was the worst year of my life, I was depressed all the time) and I'm so lonely every single day that it's kind of ruining my life. I've always felt so lonely even when I had friends but now I actually feel like I might go insane and I don't know what to do.