i don't know why i feel like this. when i put makeup on it feels so wrong and i try to hide it from my mum because i don't want her to have to face that i'm growing up. when people talk about relationships or parties i feel like i should leave the room because i shouldn't be listening to this, as if hearing people talk about 'grown-up' things is going to make me grow up too. i'm about to turn 18 but don't watch r15 movies with my parents because it feels wrong and i would just feel guilty doing it. i put on a bit of an act around my parents to seem more immature and childish. my parents are strict but not crazy strict, my mum even suggested we go to a bar when i turn 18, but i would feel so disgusted with myself and guilty for letting myself act my age. is this a universal feeling