Depression Society MKVI

I just got off the phone with them, it was good to talk to someone, I'm feeling a bit calmer now and have moved everything sharp and all my pills to the kitchen so at least I have to think before I can do anything. Think I acted like a right retard on the phone, had to keep getting them to repeat stuff as I can hardly hear anything but they were very understanding. If I get through this weekend I'm going to go back to the GP and ask them to do something. I really can't deal with this.



a "wise man"? Took me far too long to work out who you were on about

You made me smile at least.

This isn't fair. You can't tell me not to do it then do it yourself!

Formal complaint for what? Being goddamn awesome?

Get someone else to e-mail for you? Or do what I do, send an e-mail saying seeing attached note, and then include a note from my lovely GP

I have a confession to make. I feel I must share. So, guess what?

mental health appointment went okay I think, gonna get extra counselling and they are putting me on Mirtazapine? anyone know/had any experience with this stuff? :/

idk, hopefully it will help anyway.

Probably one of the few things I could have read which would actually make me smile right now.

I just got off the phone with them, it was good to talk to someone, I'm feeling a bit calmer now and have moved everything sharp and all my pills to the kitchen so at least I have to think before I can do anything. Think I acted like a right retard on the phone, had to keep getting them to repeat stuff as I can hardly hear anything but they were very understanding. If I get through this weekend I'm going to go back to the GP and ask them to do something. I really can't deal with this.

Wasn't too bad last night. Took me a while to get to sleep but didn't wake up during the night. Woke up early too but it's not so bad on weekdays, gives me more time to psych myself to get out of bed.

Friends were great today, I was never on my own and there was always someone to have a casual conversation with. Obviously it's so much better than being on my own but I can't help but feel low when I'm with people too. Although when I am with people, I'm not concentrating on my mood which is good.

I handed in the piece of homework I had only did a bit of and my teacher wasn't at all bothered. He gave me extra time and even explained the questions for me. In another lesson only 4 of us out of the entire class had done the homework so we were sent out of the room while the head of department screamed at the rest of the class. Glad I did it now.

We had an assembly this morning about how close we are to leaving and how hard it is to get a job. Cue me trying not to cry in the assembly and most of period 1. There's so many people who are better than me so I don't see why I'm ever going to get to where I want to be. It all seems to pointless. Also clicked that me not concentrating = bad results = worse A level results = no university = loneliness = me feeling worse = being worse at any job I happen to have, whether it's the job I want or not. Seems like I'm thinking too far into the future but that's inevitably going to happen.



Sorry for the essay! How are you?

Also, slightly off topic, but found this on the BBC: http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-16989689. Couldn't agree more.

just bumping this cause would really help me to know if people have had any experiences with Mirtazapine

That's good, what time do you try to get to sleep?
Glad your friends were good, hope things stay that way.
Sounds like a good a teacher for once! That was really good then, seems like you're making a good effort. Think that's really amazing! When I was at my worst I just didn't bother with anything at all.
Hopefully good things will lead on from your appointment and things will get sorted and you'll be feeling better for A-levels! Try not to think too far ahead at the moment, when I do that it really brings me down. Just take it one day at a time.


No problem, I enjoy a good essay too!
I'm good thanks, felt fine again mood wise. Had this question that the lecturer said a week ago was due in today. When I got to the last part I was thinking we haven't been taught how to this yet, but as it was due in today I spent quite a while the past few days trying to figure it out, then in the lecture today he says it's now due in next Friday as he hasn't got as far with the notes as he thought he would. That was rather amusing, wouldn't of hurt him to have sent an email before. He asked quite a few questions in the lectures that no one was answering, which I knew after working on the question, wanted to answer but was too scared, so just kept on writing more clues until someone answered. Sort of had my arm half up then chickened out, don't what I thought was so terrible that would happen. Counsellor said to try to do things that make me anxious then assess my thoughts, as a way to recognise that they're irrational, wouldn't normally have even thought about answering.
My housemates birthday today, tomorrow she's having predrinks here then going to a nightclub. I'm invited, but really not my cup of tea at all, would be so uncomfortable, feel kind of rude not going. Other housemates asked if I wanted to join with them to get her present though, so that was nice. Think I will wait til her birthday is over then explain that I won't be here next year, should get it out the way soon, hopefully they won't mind too much....nervous!

Tends to make you really lethargic at first - I was sleeping 15 hours a night - but that wears off over time, or bizarrely as you move up to higher doses. A lot of people get really hungry on mirtazapine, although that never happened with me. Apart from sleeping more the only thing mirtazapine did to me was give me extremely vivid dreams.

Hope it works for you.

Well, that's something. Please get some company for the weekend

But you did the same to me!

For the certain slightly illegal thing that I did... It would actually be deeply hilarious if it weren't for the whole now being persecuted thing, and I really don't get why she'd make such of it.



Couldn't help crying in front of my sister. Told her a bit of the truth, but left out the whole me doing something wrong and having a complaint made about me thing... Might end up having to tell her everything later, I dunno.

I'm allowed to because I'm right, you're not.
I'm well curious what you did. You didn't bite her did you?

It's good you've told your sister - a problem halved is a er.....ok I've forgotten the saying. but you get the point. Anyway at least she can keep an eye on you.

a problem halved is a problem solved.

Or something like that.

Or depending on who you tell, a problem shared is a problem doubled!