Uuugh what to do when you woke up at 3AM by your brother coming in from a heavy drinking session and been wide awake ever since.
I'm incredibly jealous that he can get away with abusing himself like that for funsies, and yet if I slip up with looking after myself (pizza last night as treat; genuinely good day on the beach) my mind and body rebel and give me hell.
So pissed off. I've tried staying positive and using coping mechanisms/relaxation techniques (Viz, music, meditation, Sudoku-okay, maybe the last one's a bit of a bad idea) but tonight the sandman's off-duty. The only reason I haven't binged is as Toto said, that I'm sick of tearing my parents' hearts apart by doing something that has no purpose and makes no-one really feel better. But if I eat enough it'd finally make me sleepy...
It's Easter today but it doesn't really feel like it right now : /