I have enough citalopram to last me until 27th May, and I don't go back to England to get more until the 1st June. So I've been alternating my doses at the moment so I'll have enough to take it daily at the end of May (when my exams are, and when my anxiety will be at its peak). I'm dreading coming off this stuff in June, even alternating days at the moment gives me headaches, sleepiness, mild paranoia and I think it's what's causing the crazy dreams. Just need to 'save up' two more tablets and we're good. I still love this stuff, when I'm taking it constantly. Feel better than I have done in probably years.
Im not depressed at the moment, but my sleeping is a bit strange. I actually fall asleep, I can easily sleep 12 hours, and still feel reasonably tired when I wake up. But I can't get to sleep early at all. Even if I get up reasonably early in the morning (Ie like 9am, which is early for me), it still gets to 2am and I can't sleep. I have zopiclone in my drawer, but I don't want to waste it tonight, since I have to be up at 7.30 for lectures. It's crazy, I can barely keep my eyes open in these 8.30am lectures. Usually I'm tired, but just yawning and wanting to sleep, but lately I've actually been struggling to keep my eyes open.
And when I do get to sleep, I keep having these crazy intense dreams. I "woke up" the other night and my wrists were bleeding everywhere and I freaked out. But obviously there wasn't anything actually wrong with them. Not sure if it was a hallucination, or if I didn't wake up at all and it was a dream within a dream. First time that's ever happened, although like I said my dreams have all been very intense lately. Not nightmares, but just weird.