Yeah, she's amazing
. I know she would want to know. We've been best friends since we were children and she is one of the few things that are keeping me going. I know she would also be upset that I haven't mentioned anything at all.
But I don't want to sound pathetic or attention seeking... I often think what would I say to her or a doctor but it just feels awkward and I just feel like I'm whining and moaning and nothing in particular. I also think if I tell her I would start distancing myself from her.
I want her to get better and counselling is helping her so much and I don't want her to worry about me when she needs to be focusing on herself.
I think in regard to speaking to anyone I'm going to see how my placement abroad works out... I'm hoping it'll be amazing and the change I need. But if it isn't I'll definitely speak to someone.
The weird thing is I've never had a problem like that in shops before
. I guess I subconsciously prepare myself for leaving the house. I always have notes on my phone about what I'm doing or who I'm meeting and on the day I always give myself plenty of time to get ready. I think next time I unexpectedly have to go out, if I can, I will wait for a bit.
Thank you for replying
. Sorry to read to read about you going to A&E and stuff. You said you don't want to post what triggered you but if you ever want to talk about it, I (and many other lovely people on this thread) are just a PM away
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