What I lfet out what it's pretty horrible to have thismechanism in your head, but at the same time I know I have to be a realised, but why should looking at an attractive woman, and her looking at me, again, I'm not talking one way cases(And I know the militant ball busters could not wait to jump on this and say I'm probably a freak, they are better than me, your probably ugly/worthless, or other militant feminist shite to kick you down, none of this is true), be something painful, it should be something fun and joyful, when I was starting out young I had an ease and it was fun and more relaxed, I guess cos I assumed there was yeard ahead of human, good sexy stuff, how wrong was I? A physical problem interrupted, got it sorted, then money and job problems kick in, got a bit older, and the game changed. No longer was it fun, and I had missed out and have done more.