After lurking through these forums since about February, I think I'll actually post. I've been depressed, anxious, and socially anxious for years (probably since my mid teens, I'm 23 now). It got a lot worse last summer, when I broke up with my ex and finished uni. Since then, I've been studying the law conversion course, which I really hate, and things have gotten really bad. I've been having much darker thoughts, and socially things have got even worse, I hardly ever go out. I even skip going to lectures a lot of the time, just because I can't face it. Motivation has been very bad for the past couple of months, and I've really fallen behind on work (which, as I say, I don't enjoy anyway). It seems a bit strange distilling all that I've felt in the past into those above four lines, and it makes it seem quite trivial, like I'm making a fuss about nothing, but this past year or so reall has been hell.
I've been having CBT since about January, which I'm not sure if it's helping. If it does help, it'll be in the long term, I'm sure. I finally got on anti-depressants a week ago (Sertraline). Apart from nausea, I haven't seen anything from that yet. Hopefully it'll do some good.
So, basically:
to all of you! And I hope you don't mind too much if I post about my rubbish life here every so often