My exams are nearing and I NEED to revise. I have a baby sister and of course my mum has to prioritise her and i get that. But this means that while my mum is doing the household work I have to look after my sister. At this point, It feels as if I have become the mum because im tackling both household things as well as my sister and my studies all at the same time.
I get that every person has a problem and i should get over this but my mum doesn't even acknowledge the time I spend doing the household things instead of my studies when i should be revising. Because of this, my last mocks were horrendous with just grade 6s in everything. I went down 2 grades in EVERYTHING.
My mum said she doesn't care if i get low grades but my grades mean a lot for me. My mum never experienced higher education and neither did my dad, so I haven't ever asked for anything from them because i know its difficult to manage the costs.
So i want to have a successful career and also go onto higher education because I am capable of it. It just breaks my heart that my parents don't have the same viewpoint as me even though Ive tried explaining so many times. I want to become a lawyer and i told my dad but he just said it takes too long to become one and you wont be earning any money until you do become one so he wants me to be a accountant by an apprenticeship.
I did some research and found out about degree apprenticeships so I told him about that but the look on his face just said he doesn't understand and believes that degrees are a waste of time.
Ive been able to remain calm and not dwell on it too much, but sometimes I just breakdown and have a panic attack. Then after its over I just think that its all my fault somehow. Maybe I'm just overreacting. Should I be wasting my energy with my emotions like this or should I just keep it to myself until I have some say and can move out or something?