I'm a 23 year old female and I'm single. Honestly, I don't even really desire a relationship right now. All of my friends are hitting they 2 to 3 year marks in their respective relationships though and it makes me feel a bit weird. Especially because I'm still technically a virgin. (I say technically because I've done other sex acts like mutual masturbation, handjobs etc. I've just been waiting for the right person to go all the way with.)
I mean, I've dated guys and was even in a relationship for 11 months last year. I was going to have sex with him, but then he ended up breaking my trust and I lost all attraction. It was kind of frustrating because I was convinced that I'd be with this guy for years but I just couldn't continue that relationship after everything.
Anyway, now I've been single again for like a month or so and I've been casually texting different guys on Hinge and Bumble but I just...don't feel like I want anything more than a casual 'drink and hook up every few weeks' sort of deal. The idea of a serious long term relationship is so daunting to me, especially after my break up. I've almost just given up completely on being in a relationship. Legitimately considering just getting a sperm donor when I'm like 35 and am ready to have kids.
Does anyone else feel the same way? Or am I just jaded because I just got out of a really intense relationship?