Hey everyone,
Decided to come in here for a bit of a chat. Reason being I wanted some advice off you guys. What are the tell tale signs of depression? At what point did you guys decide enough is enough and go get checked out at the doctors?
I finished sixth form in 2008, and it seems ever since then I've felt more sad as each year has gone by. I know it happens to us all, but I'm getting older (now 21) and I wonder what the point in my existance actually is?
I'm at the point where I wake up in a morning, and can't see a reason for getting out of bed. Most days I stay in bed with the curtains closed, unless there is an actually necessity to be up (e.g.sign on at the dole - this makes me miserable in itself). I find that when I'm awake, I just seem to go over and over all the bad things in my life. When I'm asleep I don't have to think about stuff. My eating hasn't exactly been the best, I might have a biscuit and a few drinks, then my seem to make me cry. Or someone might say something and mean it as a jomain main in the evening - I just seem to have no appetite. I find that quite often, the smallest things ke, but I take it seriously and fly off the rails at them.
I should be bounding off the walls with excitement by now. Got a great few weeks coming up, my birthday, two concerts, a week away with the family. Instead, I just feel like I've got this huge grey cloud hanging over me that won't budge, and I don't know how to get rid of it.