Number 7 completed! I had been thinking about getting a tattoo for a while, but had been hesitant. A lot of times in America, it is really frowned upon to get a tattoo if you are wanting to enter a professional industry or career. As of now, I am wanting to go into science, perhaps medical school to be a radiologist or fuse Biology and Business together somehow. With the science field notorious for being strict in rules and expectations, I definitely weighed the pros and cons for a while.
But I got it.
The meaning? I'm an American born Chinese and often struggled with an identity crisis growing up in the U.S, a country that is wonderfully comprised of a myriad of races and cultures. However, being an American doesn't really have a "set" look or culture really. At least, I don't think it should. All the immigrants and generations who have moved to the country learn to cohabit this nation, making the "true" identity of an American less defined and more ambiguous.
Growing up, I struggled with having Chinese parents who freshly immigrated from China, while I was immersed into the American world from birth. Because there still are people who believe an American should be a certain way, I often experienced discrimination and unsavory behaviors because I wasn't "American-enough" or the ideal American type. I suppose I still am not. But despite the friction between growing up with two cultures, I finally learned that I don't have to choose. I am culturally fluid, neither American nor Chinese. I am easily able to weave in and out through both cultures, with an affinity toward my American side. Fusing the two cultures results in creating an individual culture--a third culture. I consider myself a third culture kid.
Anyways.....my mom always calls me "little bird" in Chinese, meaning that she predicts that I will soar and fly away from home toward hope and success. Also, I used to take classical voice lesson for 6 years and that was very song bird-like within itself. But ultimately, I got the a sparrow on my left shoulder for myself, a clever spot if I say so myself. Able to be covered by formal shirts and dresses, unless there are spaghetti straps. Everyday that I change clothes or shower, it's a reminder to myself of who I want to make proud (mom, God, and myself) as well as the great hope that I aspire to have for my future.