... with a complicated academic and well-being history, trying to apply back to university is very frustrating, especially considering if I had recognised my well-being earlier I would probably be studying at my dream university.
It involves finding universities that might meet my own academic standards but that I also meet their academic standards. Emailing and discussing my circumstances with universities that appeal to me to see whether I even stand chance. All the while wondering whether it's just a pipedream.
I emailed one university initially who I'm currently in discussions with. I've just emailed another 4 to explore my other options.
However, this neglects to mention the other factors involved in picking a university. What the locals are like, the area, the student union, course structure, the night life etc etc. Which is very difficult, full stop.
TL;DR Don't know which universities are likely to give me an offer due to my circumstances and don't even know which university would best suit me either.