Prefacing this by saying my dad and I have a very strained relationship. i don't like how he treats my mother or me, and his attitude when talking to us (he talks to us like we're just stupid girls who don't know anything). he doesn't spend any time with my mum, she always cries about how he seems to like his video games more than her when we're alone.
Yesterday we had a massive argument, tldr I asked for help with something and he was being pushy, then started snapping at me, to which I told him to get out of my room if he wasn't going to help with what i needed help with. 10 minutes later i asked for help again since I was calmed down a bit and he said no because i "treated him like an ********". I was trying to reason for him to help me and he just kept repeating that with a smug face on knowing I couldn't finish what I was doing without the help.
I was just about hysteric after a minute of this and started screaming at the top of my lungs about how he was being an ******** and all the ****y things he's done to me, and that good parents don't treat their kids the way he does. I brought up the times that he told me he didn't love me (he has twice said "this is why i dont love you and no-one else will" about very minor things) and he went quiet. he did some other stuff and finally i packed up some things and ran away for the day. i was gone 10 hours, he didn't even ask where i was going or call me at any point.
Last time we argued like this was when he found out I was gay, he didn't talk to me for a month. And even then I was the one who had to start talking to him again first.
I hate living like this. i don't know what to do and i feel bad for my mum who's caught up in the middle. does anyone else have a parent like this who can relate, or does anyone have any advice?