Ok, if my mood stays like this until Wednesday they're just going to take me back into hospital. ****'s sake.
I suppose I could take some books in with me and write out quotes by hand if I had to. Can't afford to lose anymore time to this ****ing illness.
I want to go for a really long, lonely walk, but I don't know the area well enough and the places that I could go are just on the uni site, so near the union bar and no doubt people still having snowball fights.
honestly i'd rather have the sadness than this wierd, empty numbness atm
valentines day is approaching, and all my friend keeps talking about is how shes been asked out by so many guys already. in the past 5 years i've had major crushes on 4 guys, they all knew i did, and they all went for someone else. you'd think i'd get used to rejection. forever alone
Mum has forgiven my dad. For all the abuse and bullying. She just left me. I'm now loving with my aunt and uncle indefinitely, I'm not going to be there to witness what happens for another 2468289995431 times. I thought she'd learnt.
Are you resitting a year? You might have been put on the wrong course when you went back? At least you felt better for a bit, even if it was just a little bit. Staying up all night probably wouldn't be the best thing anyway, sleep might help your mood a bit?
Yep, I think that's what did happen, but now my advisor knows about my problems I feel like I can't really ask to have it changed back to the masters while I'm struggling now. Yeah, you're probably right actually. Should sort out my bed, sheet is off again, needs changing anyway.....but so much effort. Will go to the library after my lecture in the morning and hopefully catch up some time.
Mum has forgiven my dad. For all the abuse and bullying. She just left me. I'm now loving with my aunt and uncle indefinitely, I'm not going to be there to witness what happens for another 2468289995431 times. I thought she'd learnt.
Sucks about your mum, but hopefully things will be better for you with your aunt and uncle.
I can definitely relate. I don't really have any close friends nor much of a dating life, and it can be so frustrating. I've even turned to trying the internet to look for people on there .
I'm not too sure how to advise tbh since I'm having some of the same problems and struggling to remedy them, but I hope things do eventually work out for you.
You too, thank you
When you feel ok about something for a while and then suddenly irredeemably awful about it... how do you know which is the true perception? Are you being reasonable then being depressed? Or are you being too optimistic then realistic?
When you feel ok about something for a while and then suddenly irredeemably awful about it... how do you know which is the true perception? Are you being reasonable then being depressed? Or are you being too optimistic then realistic?
Eh, I dunno. I have to admit, I do feel less inclined to be optimistic these days, because then when disappointment hits it just feels that much worse.