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. I didn't tell my partner either at first, because I didn't want it, and didn't want the complication of him thinking anything differently. The only people I told were two friends from uni and two from home. One of my friends was absolutely amazing, but she has children so completely didn't know why I didn't want it! Anyway, boyfriend found out afterwards, not from me (which will make me seriously consider who I tell things to in future, but never mind) and we talked. He was hurt, but knows why I couldn't go to him about it. We split up over it, because it was messing me up, but as soon as he found out he came round to talk and we got back together again. He insisted on telling his parents and some of his friends and family, because they hated me for leaving him (I was horrible about it, I'm ashamed of myself, but I wasn't in the right mind at the time) and he knew they'd never accept me back into the family unless he told them.
The only problem now is that I'm on constant edge whenever someone who knows comes into contact with my family. Plans for the future come up regularly in conversation, everyone knows I want kids, and I'm terrified of someone saying "are you scared incase you MC again" in front of my parents. I know it's unlikely, as it's not the kind of thing people just throw into conversation, but I know it would absolutely kill them to find out (that I hadn't told them more than anything else), and I've worked my own way through it so there's no reason for them to know now.
I have a charm bracelet initial too!!
. It's good to know that we know what it means, even if nobody else does, or ever will. I'm glad you said that actually, because my partner thinks it's odd to behave in this way for something that was probably the size of a credit card, maybe even a bit smaller, but to me it wouldn't have mattered if it was 1 day pregnant or 12 weeks.. as soon as I saw the scan it was my baby.
Anniversaries WILL be hard, but only the first time. Make sure you're kept busy. I arranged a crazy day out on the day the baby should have been born, and I managed to forget about it at times. I'm spending the day (in 6 days time, eek) on my own this year, as my partner is away, but I genuinely think I will be okay.
Feel free to quote me to chat any time
. It may be a while before I see it, as we don't get notified for anons, but I pop in and out of here every few days so I will see it eventually!