Am i still a virgin?

true celebacy according to some schools of thought

You made two exactly same threads, just that one is anonymous

Here's the situation:

Im 23 and for religious reasons i had sworn an oath of celibacy until marriage and had been doing really well.

So far i have lived a life without alcohol, without sex and have been a vegetarian my whole life and i honestly have been very content living a simple life. I dont feel the need to have a flashy cars to impress women or get frustrated if someone is making more money thanme, i dont need alcohol to enjoy myself or eat meat for satiety. Even if the food i get is bland i'm quite happy as long as its vegetarian and healthy.

Sure the temptation lust inevitably creates is there,when i go out, esp. When a woman shows interest in me. But self-discipline and ruling over your sense rather than hacing them enslave you is part of what celibacy is all about. And i deliberately stay away from what i personally think is lewd material online like pornography.

But over 1 month ago, i made one of the biggest mistakes in my life by going to amsterdam with my friends who insisted i come along, less i want to be a spoil sport, and as they are my main circle of friends at uni i didnt want to let them down.

So i went. At a bar i asked for somethng nonalcoholic and my friends gf said "dont worry il get you something special" i remember those words specifically and i trusted her. So i had the supposed "special dutch drink" it looked like coke and was very bitter with a hintof sweetness everyone else was drinking beer. After a short while i felt like i was floating and became more talkative. It definitely wasn't cannabis as ive used that before numerous times and the effect were completely different. She asked if i wanted another but it didn't feel right to me so i refused. At that point she laughed and said it eas whiskey and coke, i failed to see the funny side and neither did some ofmy friends. But what could i do at this point?

So anyway, there was a party going on at the hostel where we were staying. There were so many beautiful women, my friends very drunk by this point buggered off and i was sat talking to a woman from sweden she was really pretty wearing a low cut dress and was sat against. She asked where my gf was? I.said i dont have one, and to cut a long story short the magnetism was so strong esp when she embraced me that my mind just seemed to flip at this point she started kissing me and took me back up to her room. I still wasnt my usual self after that drink. We eventually had sex, she gave me oral then followed with protected sex. I can't explain it but i felt almost as if i was in a trance whilst this was happening.

She said she had great fun after then gave me a peck on the cheek then left. To me, It may have felt good for 5 minutes but afterwards i was filled with deep feeling of regret. And the next day i felt like crying, having forsaken something i had believed in so wholeheartedly for a few minutes of pleasure. Mentally and definitely emotionally i've never been the same ever since. I'd let my parents down. I'd let myself down. All the prayers and transmutation, my ideals and values out of the window and for what?

But recently, ive been thinking true celebacy according to some schools of thought occurs when sexual intercourse occurs when the "nadi" nerves of a man and woman combine. But with protection or oral this isnt possible. So although i may have spilled the seed once, chastity has not been violated.

So technically i am still a virgin. Do you regard someone who has never had unportected sex as a virgin?

Congratulations you put dogmatic nonsense aside and have become a normal human being.

Just move on and learn from this experience, and be stronger as a result~