Hi,
I am really sorry to hear you are going through this. I know sort of know how devastating this feels. I had a lot of health illness on my last placement and it really affected my confidence, as things built up, my mentor nearly didn't sign me off, I was deferred first time round, however I got extenuating circumstances for being ill etc and eventually passed. I am now on my sign off however it all has really mentally affected me, so I know how traumatising it is. Have you seeked any councilling from uni? Also could you get extenuating circumstances for the fact you were ill and this could have affected your ability? However I feel that your mentor was equally as accountable for the drug error, she should have told you to wait, or she should have known already when she got the clexane out, she must have had to read the drug chart first, to know pt needed it, therefore would need the correct dosage. The fact you used courage and realised the error before your mentor speaks volumes. You even liased with the doc to check bloods. This should not have been a major issue on your part, more of a learning experience for you, and would most likely result in you doing a reflection on it, or a datix if harm occurred? Some people wouldn't even say anything out of fear, you spoke up, so don't feel bad. This is called human factors/ human error, look it up re:nursing. We are not supposed to be penalised for making an innocent mistake, because it results in people not communicating/speaking up. Are you with the union or rcn? Ask for support, make sure you get it and don't back down. Medication knowledge builds over time, this is really harsh. I think you should make a complaint about your mentor. They are there to support you and to let you know the direction you need guidance in, help you to build knowledge and competency. Were you allowed study periods to look over the drugs? I always find looking at all the drugs charts will give you an idea of the drugs that will nearly always be used on your placements, depending on the area. Eg stroke aspirin, statins, hypertension meds etc and a variety of blood thinners. Then I'd just google them all. Did you only have one mentor Also? If you need to talk you can private message me on here if you want. Things will get better, try to be strong x