Hey guys.
I'm 28, and have just started taking driving lessons. The school offers a "package deal", which requires a minimum level of skill, which I've completed 8 extra lessons to achieve.
I'm locked in to a schedule with my driving instructor for the next two months, and will have my driving test early March.
The problem is, I'm really not gel-ing with my instructor. I'm a sensitive, introverted guy, very anxious and hard on myself. He's a competent driver, but not as competent a teacher. I've made enormous progress in just 8 lessons (from never having sat behind the wheel), but when I make mistakes he seems to think the proper course of action is to pretty much yell, sound upset and even mean. He doesn't seem to understand that it only makes me more anxious, and less focused on the actual driving.
I know I should have come to this conclusion earlier, and probably changed instructor. The problem was that the "package deal" was only available until December 31st, so I had to pay before then, and then finish get all the lessons contained in the package done by March. If I back out now I'll lose all my cash, so I'm pretty much locked in.
I guess I just wanted a little support. While I guess I COULD technically just put my foot down and demand to get another teacher, part of me feels like that would be a little like giving up. I feel like I want to stand up for myself, to speak my truth. I wish I could get to a place where I just block out all of his comments, and just stay focused on correcting what mistake I made, and focusing on the actual driving. Instead of getting anxiety over the fact that he's unhappy with me/mad at me, that I'm less of a human being, that I'm worthless etc. which is the usual place I tend to go. I lay the blame on myself, instead of laying the blame on him: to be honest he really is an f-ing BAD teacher. The next time he yells at me I feel like I should just tell him straight up: "You're not making it better by yelling. I know I made a mistake, I will try to do better next time. You're just making me stressed" instead of laying down flat like a wet towel.