Is it Haram to do this?

Okay so basically , I'm a man in my early 20s and I consider myself as a muslim but not a strict muslim at all. I do the basics (pray 5x a day,fast,give charity and try to be a good person) but to be honest, thats basically it. I go to partys,have opposite sex friends and do alot of stuff that is considered haram.

Now Im not a good muslim by any degree but at the very least , i try to keep my faith and ask god to help guide me and also the religion helps me to be very grateful for all the little things that I have been blessed with and to always be happy even if you have little.

Now the problem with my faith is that I'm fed up with having fellow Muslims act like they are superior humans because they follow the religion more than I do.

I have done an honest self-assessment and I have come to the conclusion that strict judgmental muslims have pushed me further away from the religion , then closer to it. People telling me that im a horrible person because i don't follow the religion perfectly is just pushing me further away because I just feel that I will never be good enough so why bother even practising it in the first place?

So basically I wanna ask if it is haram to avoid strict muslim friends and just to practise and discuss religion by myself, as thats when I feel the closest to god and feel less judged.

You should not relate with negative people. However, you should consider what they have told you and reflect whether they are right. The truth can hurt sometimes.

Have you ever considered that every person has different levels of desires? if i have a extreme desire to listen to music and unfortunatly , I currently don't have the willpower to not listen to it due to religion, Am I now a bad person? because Im not sure about you but i defiantly didn't get a choice when I born on how much willpower and dedication I would have.

This might be better off in religion (not faith and spirituality), because threads like these often descend into Islamophobes v. Salafis, with no useful middle ground.

Yeah In hindsight , that would have been smarter because I can see this thread becoming a "anti-muslim and ex-muslim vs muslim" thread. thanks man.

Have you ever considered that every person has different levels of desires? if i have a extreme desire to listen to music and unfortunatly , I currently don't have the willpower to not listen to it due to religion, Am I now a bad person? because Im not sure about you but i defiantly didn't get a choice when I born on how much willpower and dedication I would have.

If you lack dedication and willpower then don't follow a religion that requires dedication and willpower.

by this logic , 98% of muslims should leave the religion as the vast majority don't have the willpower to follow everything in the religion. this reply lacks major critical thinking.

Okay so basically , I'm a man in my early 20s and I consider myself as a muslim but not a strict muslim at all. I do the basics (pray 5x a day,fast,give charity and try to be a good person) but to be honest, thats basically it. I go to partys,have opposite sex friends and do alot of stuff that is considered haram.

Now Im not a good muslim by any degree but at the very least , i try to keep my faith and ask god to help guide me and also the religion helps me to be very grateful for all the little things that I have been blessed with and to always be happy even if you have little.

Now the problem with my faith is that I'm fed up with having fellow Muslims act like they are superior humans because they follow the religion more than I do.

I have done an honest self-assessment and I have come to the conclusion that strict judgmental muslims have pushed me further away from the religion , then closer to it. People telling me that im a horrible person because i don't follow the religion perfectly is just pushing me further away because I just feel that I will never be good enough so why bother even practising it in the first place?

So basically I wanna ask if it is haram to avoid strict muslim friends and just to practise and discuss religion by myself, as thats when I feel the closest to god and feel less judged.