Hello! Reading the previous threads on this, I have gathered that you may have social anxiety and that is effecting you reaching out to help (the main problem) I totally get this, in fact I struggled with that problem myself.
small steps will help you to gain confidence to reach out into larger. I understand this is very hard.
for instance, how do you feel about texting rather than a phone call? If you find texting a lot easier then there is a service called shout. You can also remain anonymous.
anxiety is dreadful. It has prevented me from many things. But has also given me a unique insight that has blossomed into beautiful friendships and traits people commend me for
bullying especially knocks self-confidence and is a huge factor in social anxiety.
when we first feel upset, down, and that goes untreated it can become co-morbid with other similar mental illnesses, such as depression as they share similar traits. There is help, and you are not doomed. I understand how hard it is for you.
small steps to build your confidence, accommodate, find ways. Then work yourself up from the GP. A big help for me was my gp operated online. I was too anxious for phone calls and avoided them all costs. Luckily the online service helped a lot more as I could stay at home and not physically talk.
take time and build yourself up, one step at a time