Hi! I go to a grammar school and I've just started y12 with very good GCSE results and I'm taking english literature, philosophy, french and biology for a level.
I've always been very english and philosophy oriented, and my dream has always been to study english literature at cambridge and my teachers (and my grades) have always said I'm good at these subjects, despite how I feel about my performance.
However for the first few lessons in english and philosophy I have felt so anxious to the point where I gave myself a migraine over the weekend. My mind goes blank whenever I read anything in english or need to contribute in philosophy and it's the worst feeling ever, I really don't know what to do because this is my entire life and now I'm struggling to get anything out in either of those lessons because I just tense up and my mind goes completely blank.
I'm really scared I'm going to fail, I don't know what to do. I'm autistic and have adhd which causes me to be pretty much exhausted from school so I don't really have anything outside of it to fall back on, not even hobbies because I have to sleep almost as soon as I've finished my homework. Does anyone have any advice?
sorry if this is kind of rambly i am just extremely scared