Hi guys. I just wanted somewhere to vent I guess and maybe if anyone could offer some advice, I’d appreciate it a lot. I am currently 18 years old. Around 10 years ago, my parents received a call in the middle of the night and then we travelled around 3 hours to some random woman’s house and slept there overnight. Bearing in mind, I had no idea what was going on as none of my parents had told me anything. We stayed for 2 weeks and then came back every weekend for around a year or so, and then I began to piece together what was going on and found out that it was uncle who was arrested and my parents were going to his court trials. A few years later, my parents registered to formally adopt my cousin (the uncle‘s child). My parents needed character witnesses and so chose one of my close friend’s parents. It was then when I found out what was going on through that friend. My uncle was on trial for murdering my auntie (his ex wife). My entire family, including my grandparents, did not believe this was true the entire time and so I also did not believe it. However, around 4 years ago, my boyfriend decided to search it up for me (I did not have the courage to do this) and found out my uncle was found guilty and there was so much evidence including a video. I decided to read the articles and all the details were so so brutal and to this day I can’t get it out of my head. I had an amazing relationship with my uncle and we were so close. He was the most gentle and kind hearted person and I cannot, to this day, come to terms with what happened. I have nightmares about what happened still and I don’t know what to do. I can’t afford therapy right now as I am a full time student at university, so that unfortunately is not an option. Thanks for reading.