I broke up with my ex about 2 years ago now. We'd only dated a few months, but we became very close and ill admit that I've never felt the same way about anyone else since. It was a pretty messy break up resulting in us not talking again for months. I was very distraught about it when it happened.
Nonetheless I'm not usually the sort of person to cry over spilled milk. I'd had breakups beforehand, and I'd been upset, and I expected to get over him after a few weeks/months.
I eventually stopped being so upset, but I never stopped liking him in that way. During the months that we didn't speak i never saw him either because he was away at university, but it didn't help. I tried dating other men, one I was even in a relationship longer than I was with him, but I felt nothing for them and just felt guilty!
I keep thinking I'm being ridiculous and don't understand why he's got such a strong hold on me, it isn't like he's mr perfect or anything. He always creeps into my head when something that even remotely relates to him is mentioned. When we talk (which is admittedly rare, but we do sometimes) I still get butterflies. I dream about him a lot too.
Its all very weird. As someone who's usually an independent person, I find it so odd to come to terms with this attraction that I'd thought id get rid of years ago.