Dear you,
This past year has been incredible. I've met people who are the freinds I've always wanted and are truly amazing people. Events have happened this year that have defined me as a person, my reactions to the situations that have presented themself have shown me who I really am.
At times though, it's been really difficult, stressful, sad and lonely. I would be lying if I said that I wished we didn't break up before we both went to our seperate universities, as all the things that have happened wouldn't have, I even got in another relationship, but I would also be lying if I said I haven't been thinking about you, wishing it was still you at times that I was telling all my stories to, the silly situations I always manage to get myself into and the adventures I've had - the extraudanary people I've met. None of them compare to you though. I had already met the most amazing person.
I've learnt a lot about love, accepted that it's a bit of a myth and it's always different, no love is the same - there is no defining one universal meaning. I know fairytales of marriage and happiness are a bit silly. Considering most marraiges end in divorce, I understand that people change and over a long period of time it's hard for two people together to keep changing in a way that they are still both right for each other, or that nobody else is suddenly better for you. This is the reason I am not pining to get back together with you, I believe you meet at least one person a year, that if you let yourself you can fall in love with them, but I really hope you're happy.
I hope one day I'll find someone as great as you, someone like you - just not you. I hope you find someone you will fall in love with, somebody to look after you when you get down and keep you strong, because you deserve that, after everything you are a wonderful person always looking to help people and bring possitivity into people's lives. It breaks me up inside and scares me that I'll never find someone as great as you again, never be lucky enough, perhaps that for me right now you are the most wonderful person in the world, but I hope that changes. It has been over a year. I hope we become good friends one day, you've changed my life, not only by being with you in which you showed me what truly magical moments life has to offer, but the impact of our break-up and then going somewhere new. That has defined me and made me into what I am today. I will always love you in some way, I promise you that is true - but I really hope I find someone new. I hope we both do.
Love,
me.