Dear You,
You remain as tricky to understand as ever: close then distant, flirty then cool, chatty then quiet.
I realise you are going through a difficult time, I just wish you would have the trust and courage to tell me about it, rather than leaving me to pick up the pieces and try and stop the situation getting worse blind.
As a friend I care about your happiness. If you want more than friendship, as your actions often suggest then try and be consistent so we can build our relationship. There is no denying that we a very close and good for each other. Its hard for me to not see you as more than a friend when your actions lead others to comment on our relationship status: it isn't just me who finds your actions inconsistent with your words at times.
Don't feel you are protecting me by not sharing your problems: whatever they are, talking is likely to help both of us. Working with you so closely makes it impossible for me to ignore your unhappiness, and I am genuinely concerned and distressed by its existence. You seem to have lost your normal chirpy confidence and I am not the only one to notice this. It has gone on too long: I have not seen you happy for a sustained period of time since we went through that awkward patch in June, when I felt there was something wrong. Four and half months of internal turmoil is too much for anyone to cope with alone.
So please talk to me. Please be true to yourself, drop the acting, admit your problems and be consistent in how you relate to me. In turn, I will endeavour to support you as much as possible, in whatever way I can, as I have been trying my hardest to do in recent weeks, but is becoming very hard with so much uncertainty.
Lots of love,
Me xxx