Dear you,
As of today, 5/11/12, it has been one year since you've been gone. It's been the longest and one of the most awful of my life without you. I miss you more than words can ever possibly describe. You were, are, always will be, one of my best friends. I can never forget you, I hope you know that. After everything you've done for me, you are the best person I've ever known. I'm actually crying while I write this. Oh you. They always say the best are taken first, and they sure are. You never deserved to be in such pain, to be so helpless against your own body. I miss your beautiful face and your ocean coloured eyes, and the way you'd always burst out laughing and tell me after what was going through your mind. I miss the way you'd look up at the sky when you were thinking and you'd scuff your shoes when you were nervous and I miss the way you used to look at me, as if I was the most interesting person in the world. I miss the way you used to look at the world as if there was always something to live for and laugh about and just.. I just miss you. I told you, that last time, I'd always try and be just like you when the time came and whenever I thought about you; I can't do it. I can't do it without wanting to cry and almost wishing it were me instead- I know you'd hate it. I still don't really believe you're gone.
Goodbye, darling, a million times over I wish I could have made time stop for that last minute so I could say a real goodbye to you.
Love forever,
Me.
P.s. I went to visit your mum this afternoon. It was so strange without you.