So... I have my music gcse solo performance tomorrow morning at 8.20am. I can't explain how scared I am for it. I mean, I can play it perfectly by myself, and then because my teacher is so rude, disrespectful and insulting, I tried playing it last week and it went horribly wrong. She then rants on about she "hates the song", how I must "play with confidence and passion" and that it should be "perfect." I'm sorry, but if she's being like that, does she really expect me to be so confident? She should be encouraging, but she's not. She said a load of other stuff too, basically making me feel like something that people look down to on the floor.
The good thing is that I can get it out of the way first, but if it goes bad I'll be so annoyed all day. And at that time in the morning, she'll be in a worse mood than usual.
I've been so stressed over the last week just because of this. I just feel so stupid and incapable, yet I know that I'm not. I'm looking forward to getting it out of the way so I can focus on subjects that I'm much better at and enjoy much more. Spanish and French coursework over music any time. Languages are waaaaaaay better.
Sorry for ranting, I just hope I do ok and don't fail. She said she wouldn't undermark anyone, but I'm pretty sure she will. I've never even done anything wrong. She probably treats me and some others in this way because we're quiet and wouldn't say anything back to her...