First of all I'm new to this site, so I don't even know if I'm even posting into the right section. The title pretty much gives away what I'm about to write about but here goes..
Basically I've been doing BSc Music Technology for just 3 and a half weeks now and I'm not loving it. A number of factors have lead to this point, most notably never being sure whether I wanted to go to University in the first place, my course title and its open day being very misleading as it is all science and we get two hours per week on recording music in the studio, and a relationship break-up a fortnight in when I am living away from home and my now-ex.
I did music performance at college alongside business studies but the business was always just something to boost my grades and something I have no interest in. Following this I knew that I wanted to do something music based as I am passionate for singing and electronic music. I looked through a number of courses on the net and didn't feel any wiser except that I knew music technology includes elements of sound recording, so I looked for appropriate courses, not a million miles away from home and applied through UCAS. I got easily achievable conditional offers from all three unis I applied for and just had to wait for the letter to come through in the summer to confirm my grades from college. I thought and thought about whether I wanted to go to university since first applying,right through til accepting my best offer from BCU in August and still wasn't pulled one way or the other. But I couldn't see any better alternative, other than getting a dead end job and having no social life.
Fast forward a month and I was moved into my halls, still unsure whether I was going to regret the entire thing. My flatmates are nice people, but not particularly outgoing, and don't really care nor have the money for going out a lot, and neither do they care about having not made many friends as they seem to just sit around in their rooms on iplayer or the like. I didn't particularly find freshers great,as I didn't know the people I was with very well and the student nights weren't exciting. However, for the first fortnight I was fine skyping my girlfriend every night and seeing her at weekends until she ended it for reasons I won't go into. This obviously left me feeling awful, homesick and has given me too much time on my hands with nothing to do other than to sit in my room alone with my thoughts.
My course is all science, bar one 2 hour slot on a friday for sound recording (which is what I find interesting) and I can't see myself doing well with no motivation to do all this science, and I don't want to get into debt for nothing. I can't see myself developing a social life down there as the people on my course also seem to do very little outside of uni hours, or meeting girls to move on (not just yet but in the future) as there are just two girls on my course.
The way I see it is I can either continue and potentially end up with my depression worsening due to doing nothing and being bored on a course I'm not interested in (although I'm very capable of doing which is besides the point), or I can quit and try and get a full time job, with a potentially crap rota meaning I don't get to see my existing friends in my home city that much, and have very little chance again of meeting girls as I'd be working in a male dominated environment. However, I may be able to use this time to think properly about what my options could be, and a direction to head in the future. I don't know what to do, and don't know of any other options.
Sorry about the essay