The question I wish to ask requires a bit of background knowledge which I will now provide.
In 2022 I went to study law at University of X. It was in the top 20 universities for law, and I went there as it was far from home and everyone around me was telling me the independence would be good for me. Long story short - I disliked it. I disliked the city & I had friends that were quite frankly not the nicest. I missed my family and decided to move back home and re-apply to a University closer to me which is actually in the top 10 for law. I had received acceptance for it previously, but had chosen to go to University of X simply for the independence that everyone preached to me.
The University closer to home (University Y) got in contact with me stating I needed a transcript of my grades from my time at University X before I could receive an offer due to the competitive nature of the course. The rest of my application was strong, my A-levels were above the required grades and I had been accepted there the previous year. Long story short - I tried for 2 months to get my transcript off of the University of X and they could not provide me with it. I got my personal tutor from my time there to contact the admissions at University Y and they stated they unfortunately did need a transcript. University Y stated I could receive an offer for other, less-competitive courses, such as History or English, but I really do enjoy studying law.
Out of defeat, I applied to University Z. Another university in my city and got accepted. I am currently studying here. However, this university is not as reputable for law. That being said, it's not awful, it's in the top 40 in the UK and I have minimal complaints about my teaching since I've been here - achieving firsts and high 2:1s.
My issue is mostly one that stems from pride, I will be the first to admit that. I talk to people at work and in day-to-day life and when I tell them what university I go to, I can almost feel them looking down upon me. The uni I'm currently at does have a reputation that only people rejected from University Y go there, and people do typically have a snobby attitude in regards to it. I hate it. I genuinely struggle to cope with people looking down on me due to the university I go to.
It's gotten to the point that I don't know if I should apply for University Y this September. I've been achieving good grades so far in all my modules and I would have a transcript to show them this time if asked. The thing is, this would put me into first year for the *third* time.
The fact that law is such a traditional field where people stereotypically do judge you on your university is also impacting my decision. Despite hating how people view me due to my university, it would not be enough to make me consider entering first year for the third time. I've heard of firms making it a requirement to have gone to a Russel Group uni to apply. I've also just heard generally that the university you go to does have a big impact on your applications for entry-level jobs in the legal field.
It's gotten to the point now where this is something I think about constantly. When alone and with other people. The way people treat me, the potential limits it will have on my career and then also the fact that I worked so hard for my A-levels only to end up somewhere I could've gone to doing half the amount of work. I keep beating myself up for not just accepting to study English or history at University Y and doing a law conversion course after. Again, I find my lecturers and tutors to be good at teaching me the information, but a rare amount of people around me take the course seriously. I guess it's not the academic environment I ever pictured myself being in for university. I rarely find seminars academically engaging, typically I'm the only one willing to answer questions, and for the sake of not being 'that person' I tend to only do so maximum 3 times a seminar. The tutor will then just answer the question themselves due to lack of engagement by my peers and it leaves no room for lively debate or discussion.
I don't know if this makes it work it to change university, though. Due to the fact it means I'll have been in university for 5 years by the time I graduate and also that I doubt I will get the extra year of student finance, so for final year I would probably have to pay my own tuition and just live at home due to lack of funding.
I'm really unsure of what to do. I'm doubting everything at the moment and constantly beating myself up. My thoughts are all over the place and any outsider insight would be appreciated.