Cheers man. Ah I'm sorry must be hard for you. Yeah I'm so confused (see what I said to cupcakes) I don't know how to break the ice
also I'm not even sure how to apologise, like you say I have done nothing wrong, at elast nothing wrong that I have not already apologised for. I'm not trying to re-initiate the relationship because I know she can't (and she may not want to anyway), also given my various problems I am not confidfent, mature or stable enough for one right now anyway. However I would love to have her back in my life as mates the way we were. I sense it'll never be 100% 'just friends' as it was a close friendship...
well basically when we met up it got a bit emotional as I was trying to explain what might happen if I get paranoid (not pretty). I do not want to hurt her (emotionally that is, I'm no abuser!!!) She thought it may be best if I don't help her with her problems whcih she contacted me for help with initially. We were texting each other for like 6 weeks after that but it slowly died down as I think we both felt awkward. She wished me happy birthday in early December but I had to wish her happy Christmas, she didn't text me first then. I texted saying I had a present for her on the 23rd December, but she didn't respond. I thought I saw her get off a bus coming in from town on Christmas Eve, so I'm sure she got the text. Christmas was the last time we were in touch.
She's in third year, I didn't want to get in the way of her exams so made no contact then and now I'm...a little scared to do so too. I don't know how to break the ice
I looked through our old Facebook conversations for the first time in a year a few nights ago. I can see that things went wrong directly in line with the spike of my anxiety/depression and a few other things. I won't lie I still have some feelings for her, but not unbearable pain of loss over the relationship. I was never sure that it'd work out. I do miss her company though. It'd be really nice to be friends. I'm hoping we've both moved on a little. I'm so confused