So, once again I am here writing in TSR. Almost a year ago, I oficially had my first boyfriend. Its been tough, lots of ups and downs. I am going to therapy, dealing with some childhood issues and what not, and my BF has been very supportive. He is incredible in so many ways; he has a job, he helps out his mother with her work and some house chores, he takes care of his older brother who is handicap, he even manages to play volleyball competetively and always finds time to hang out with me. He is, at the risk of sounding concieted, very much in love with me. It is our first relationship for both of us. However, I feel I am undeserving of his love and time. At times I feel overwhelmed by how much affection he gives me. And I feel guilty,at times, because I feel it is unfair to not being able to love him as he loves me. I have waited for months for these feelings to come, and at times they do, but for in a smooth feeble pour than a portentous torrent. I have a times explained this, and it just hurts him. What can I do? Does this mean we have to break up? Is there something wrong with me when it comes to relationships? At times I feel very angry at myself for not being in a relationship sooner, and learning how to manage a healthy one. What can I do?