Hi all.
Today is my birthday, 29 July 1991. I turn 32. (This account is named after my pigeon who passed away last year ) but I have no friends to celebrate with nor has anyone wished me. I have friends but you cant call the close or real friends. They all have their own cliques or the ones who I do talk to regularly either don't know my birthday or have forgotten about it.
I have a complicated relationship with a guy who shares the same date as me (29th but his birthday is in August) and he hasn't wished me but we do get along and have feelings but he has issues with commitment so we are stuck in acquaintance mode. I wasn't expecting from him anyway since hes not my friend.
Its not new as I have been spending the last 3 birthdays alone. this year, I cant go out or do anything special since I am actively working to fill out job applications to get a stable job and I have two interviews on 1st and 2nd of August as well as application deadlines on the 3rd and 7th and a few more lined up.
I do realise that I no longer feel the need or urge to go out and meet friends for long hours as I am finally content with myself but at times, the thought does arise that I wish I also could celebrate with many people since I see such posts often.
How do I get rid of such lingering thoughts?