A level retakes

Hi, is anyone retaking their A levels this year and feeling lowkey kinda sad and demotivated? Are you guys retaking at home or at school? I'm doing it at home and it's my first day doing it and it is quite lonely and draining, especially knowing that everyone has gone uni and I'm stuck in my room learning chem. tbf i could have gone uni but i didn't want to go to uni for the sake o going uni, if im gonna spend 3 years of my life and £28k, i want it to be a uni that i actually want to go. sad