I'm in a almost 5 year long distance (he's deployed) relationship. He got deployed two weeks ago and i won't see him for another 6 months. We planned on moving in with each other and getting engaged once i finished my last year of undergrad this upcoming spring.
This past weekend, I was at work while he was out at a bar and i got this random really bad gut feeling. And something was telling me to check his socials. I normally would never do this because we had so much trust in each other, but I just couldn't shake the terrible feeling. So i went through his account and saw he sent his friend a picture of a random girl kissing his cheek. He followed her, liked her bikini picture, and dm'd her "hey." My heart dropped to my stomach when I saw this.
After calling him and going off on him, he said that it meant nothing, she was a bartender who was friendly with all his friends, and that it all happened so fast he didn't know she was going to do that and he did nothing back to her. I decided to cut communication until this weekend because I couldn't have a conversation with him without letting all my emotions take over. And want to take time to think. He has been begging me to talk to him and basically begging for me back and my forgiveness and saying how much he loves me and that
doesn't want to lose me. And as angry as I am, I still feel so much love and compassion for him.
I just feel very conflicted and can't tell if im overreacting about what I consider to be cheating. I am still so in love with him and want to have a life with him. And i want to be able to think about it logically without letting my emotions cloud my judgment, which is why i cut communication. He has never been one to do anything like this. He is a sweetheart and my parents consider him family, and vice versa. I'm just trying to figure out how to trust what he's saying and doing, and I don't want to have resentment if I decide I want to continue with him.
I don't have many people to ask for advice about this which is why i'm here.
Would you consider what he did cheating?