Dear You,
Breaking up with me was horrible. I still think about you so many months on. You have messed me about far too much and logically, you really are no good for me. You are selfish, unreasonable, verbally abusive and very destructive to my self-esteem.
We were and are a million times the opposite. The introvert, the extrovert. The excitable, the calm. The worldy, the hermit lol. You broke my heart into a thousand pieces and then came back to further break them. But now, they are healing and knitting back together, piece by piece.
We live so far apart and yet I can't help wondering if our tracks will ever cross again. You make my emotions a rollercoaster only it the best thrill ride ever. I wish you many things, I have gone through the whirlwind of hurt and self pity, anger and embarrassment. You have hid from me. Became a ghost and moved out of my life as though you had died. I only wish you will find self happiness as much as I do not want to wish any goodness to you but to love someone else, you must first love yourself.
You are a very unhappy young man and you have made me a very unhappy young girl. Only I can heal and am healing, you need more than time and good friendship. A essential part of the mechanism is missing within you, I gave you everything I had and you repaid me with a horrible breakup a week before xmas. No xmas present. Nothing.
I wish we had ended on more amicable terms. But we never. One day I hope you can forgive me for the things I had said to you in my frenzy of anger and passion. I hope one day I can fully forgive you, but only time will do that and no words can be said to heal the wounds.
I'll move on and so will you. Opposites on every part. Strangers like the day I met you. Funny how things go back the beginning after so much time.
So to you,
Best wishes.
From me.