Feeling invisible, miserable, worthless.

hey guys,
I'm a guy who's just finished 6th form,just thought i'd post something.
Been feeling very lonely at the moment, invisible, worthless, as if i dont get noticed, i dont know if its just seeking attention or if i should just toughen up and do the whole 'stop feeling sorry for myself' thing. I have a small group of friends that has gotten even smaller, i hardly talk to anyone now, its as if everyone has disappeared. Sometimes when i look at the past , at the big picture it seems as if ive always been the one who hardly speaks which ive tried to break out of during my last few months at sixth form. Also sometimes i think to myself that my friends have never really been that good to me, and been more of 'fake'. So ive grown distant from pretty much everyone.
Another thing is, waiting on results for A-levels, i know i havent done well, so i feel like a failure, i had such high hopes this year too, and its as if everything has come crashing down on me. My day doesnt consist of much now in the holidays, ive tried to use my time, gym etc thats about it to keep myself busy but sometimes i have these moments that i'm having now. just to note i dont have much money to spend, and i've tried finding a job. I hardly talk to anyone now, and i'm really eager to meet new people who i can trust, taking in mind finding friends is hard when you cant leave home for socialising as much, (i have reasons for not leaving home but i cant say). I know some people are going to say that you meet loads of new people at uni, but the thing is i dont think i will be going this year (ive kinda mildly accepted this, but i dont know how my family will take it), been feeling extremely stressed as if ive wasted everything. my life is absolutely miserable.

I have other things to say but this is getting long.

You have just reached the end of one chapter of your life. You are at the end of your formal education and life is about to change for you. Nothing will ever be the same for you. I suspect you didn't enjoy school very much.

OK - so lets look at where you are

1. You have completed your A levels

2. You have applied for uni but you don't think you will be going because you haven't done well enough

3. You want to go to uni to meet new friends though

4. There is some reason you can't socialise but you can't tell us despite being anonymous!! Bit silly there eh.



Sometimes it takes a bit of a kicking to make you sit up.


No-one can help you except yourself.

So do you want to go to uni or not. Where do you see yourself in 2 years, 5 years 10 years.

The way I see it you have several choices

1. Redo A levels - you can do as an external candidate and then reapply for uni next year

2. Do a foundation course which will usually guarantee you a place at uni

3. Get yourself a local job - if you are not going to uni this year then you have time to do one - and accept anything - there is nothing like a menial job for giving you a kick up the rear end

Stop wallowing in self pity - going to uni will be very good for you - a chance to reinvent yourself. Look on the next few months as a chance to regroup. Get fit; learn a new language, can you travel. Try a new sport. Learn to cut yourself a bit of slack here. You are only 18 - you have youth and time on your side.