About to give Uni a second go, don't know if I can do it?

Okay so last September I received my A level results and went from my very small town down south to the University of Manchester to do Biomedical sciences. I chose to go to a city because there seemed to be a lot more going on which was very exciting for me. In terms of my actual life up there, I liked it. It was very lively in terms of social life and I made some very good friends. We sorted out a house together for 2nd year very early on (Perhaps a bad idea in hindsight). Anyway I had depression and anxiety and this resulted in me going to hospital quite frequently, not turning up to lectures and eventually getting behind and interrupting my studies until next year. The time has now come to go back up to Manchester and as previously stated I'm going to be in private accommodation. I'm now going to be in a house with second years who will have a lot more work to do than me and it's going to be very difficult for me to make friends and if I don't make any I will end up being alone for a majority of Uni, I feel like I don't want to go back but I also have a standing order with the landlords meaning I really can't afford to drop out again. Any advice at all?

Were you triggered by something before?

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I had depression anyway, however I made some mistakes at Uni last year, I didn't keep in contact with those at home as much as I should have, the whole halls experience got me very anxious as I was paranoid of peoples feelings towards me. I ended up getting well behind and that added to my stress and it was all over very quickly really...

Okay so last September I received my A level results and went from my very small town down south to the University of Manchester to do Biomedical sciences. I chose to go to a city because there seemed to be a lot more going on which was very exciting for me. In terms of my actual life up there, I liked it. It was very lively in terms of social life and I made some very good friends. We sorted out a house together for 2nd year very early on (Perhaps a bad idea in hindsight). Anyway I had depression and anxiety and this resulted in me going to hospital quite frequently, not turning up to lectures and eventually getting behind and interrupting my studies until next year. The time has now come to go back up to Manchester and as previously stated I'm going to be in private accommodation. I'm now going to be in a house with second years who will have a lot more work to do than me and it's going to be very difficult for me to make friends and if I don't make any I will end up being alone for a majority of Uni, I feel like I don't want to go back but I also have a standing order with the landlords meaning I really can't afford to drop out again. Any advice at all?

I had depression anyway, however I made some mistakes at Uni last year, I didn't keep in contact with those at home as much as I should have, the whole halls experience got me very anxious as I was paranoid of peoples feelings towards me. I ended up getting well behind and that added to my stress and it was all over very quickly really...

Did you use your uni's help service?

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You won't be alone- your housemates will still be around, they might not have that much more work that you, especially once the weeks go on, second years still have plenty of time to socialise. You never know who you might meet on your course too and societies are always good ways to meet people. And make sure you get help from your uni if you haven't already, plus telling your tutors means they can help you catch up if you miss bits. It's also possible you could claim DSA- you won't get financial support but you can get things like a dictaphone to record lectures if you can't take them in or someone to help you try and stay on top of things.

Un i can be a very rewarding experience, but dont force yourself through it if that means your mental wellbeing will suffer. I would'nt, its not worth it.
Ps- can I ask what you mean about halls experience?

But the thing is I'm not good at anything else, I have a relative level of intelligence and an interest in science and that's it, I don't want to do anything else. I just meant the experience of meeting lots of new people at once not knowing their views towards me.

But a fair portion of my first year is going to be spent in labs and lectures and in the library and walking around campus and although I won't be alone at home I feel like I will be a majority of the time. The thing is I'm meant to prove that I am no longer mentally ill in order to go back to university. The Uni records all lectures anyway so that's not a problem. If I don't make any friends next year I will end up in a city far away from home on my own.

There will always be people who don't like you. But there will be more people who do like you. The people who don't get on with you will get on with their lives like you'll get on with yours. If your interest in science overrides this, go for it.

My favourite quote is: 'The brave may not live for long, but the cautious do not live at all'.

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