Can someone give me some advice?

Is it normal to have loads of friends around you and yet still feel lonely,to appear happy and bubbly on the outside but be really down and depressed on the inside? I should be happy my life is good and I get along well with people but I don't feel okay what should I do?? I don't feel like I belong here or anywhere as a matter of fact I don't like the person I am on the inside.

Hi there

Yes it is VERY normal to still feel lonely even though you have loads of friends. Because those friends might not be actual real friends - they're in your life but they're not fulfilling your friendship needs. And that's normal. It's very common to also have this happy exterior but feel depressed inside because of those issues.
Have you had a falling out or do you just not feel like they know you anymore or they're not the type of friends that fulfil your needs anymore? Have you tried cutting those friends out of your life and finding new ones?
I know it's hard (especially if you're studying or working from home right now during covid) but it's not impossible i.e. I never thought I'd be FTiming my Bumble BFF friend who I met 4 months ago - we talk almost every single day now and plan to meet in the new year. So anything is possible.

Maybe you need to pause and take a step back and reflect on what is making your happy, what is making you unhappy and what you want to change.

Thank you for replying I do have some close friends that I can talk to I just don't as it feels like a weaknesses admiting to them that i'm in a vunerable and compromising position especially as a teenager people don't seem to understand as much and I feel like I have nobody to talk to It's a lonely world especially now because of covid and i feel like im slowly losing myself and I can't stop it from happening.

Is it normal to have loads of friends around you and yet still feel lonely,to appear happy and bubbly on the outside but be really down and depressed on the inside? I should be happy my life is good and I get along well with people but I don't feel okay what should I do?? I don't feel like I belong here or anywhere as a matter of fact I don't like the person I am on the inside.

I love sport and being active but slowly I have found myself not liking it as much

I'm sorry to hear about this. It sounds like your depressed. Have you talked to your GP about it?

do u like any crafts or baking or anything similar?

my auntie has a bakery and I bake some of the cakes but with covid the bakery has gone downhill and things havent been great so now i just bake when i can or when I want to do something as all i ever do lately is sit and stare into space......

I spoke to them before a year ago maybe when i started to self-harm but they said i would be okay and that it would pass but they did refer me to camhs a therapy thing but nothing has come of it...

Follow up with them about it. Sometimes referrals get lost, it's ****. Be persistent in getting help.

In the mean time try and do what you can to help yourself, it won't get rid of the MH issues, but should help you manage them a little better.

how do u feel about crafts? - like journaling, bullet journaling, knitting etc?

I can't say I've ever tried it will it help do you think??

YES, it will help! - well when I went through a rough depression path it did
I would suggest the following:
- journaling and or bullet journaling;
- jewellery making;
- calligraphy - its amazing;
- knitting;
- doing some mindfulness;
- card making;

thanks for the advice you have really helped me out and i appreciate it .

I spoke to them before a year ago maybe when i started to self-harm but they said i would be okay and that it would pass but they did refer me to camhs a therapy thing but nothing has come of it...