For some dumb reason my 16-year-old self decided to pick A-levels that'd get me nowhere (Art and media, though I also picked maths which I was happy with), and I just finished a BA doing a course I was never really interested in. Graphic Design is alright and I sometimes enjoy doing it, but I just doubt I'll be able to have a decent job anytime soon, especially one that I'll be happy with. Regardless, I've always had a big interest in the sciences (I got an 8-8 for my GCSEs), especially physics and maths, so I know I can *do* well when I put the time and effort in.
So I want to have a second shot at life and do something like physics or engineering, but I understand to even get a job I'd need to go to Uni again and get a good degree. To do so I'd need a good college degree or good A-levels, and the A-levels I'd need the most are Maths and Physics. I've managed to source some textbook PDFs but again, I don't know if they're the right ones - 2017's EdExcel Maths (all of em), and Cambridge International AS and A Level Physics - so I have some resources to learn from for free.
I understand I can go to a place like open study college and get the qualification + exams for a fee, or I can self-teach and just book the exam for myself individually, but I'm worried about how that'd look on my CV and if I'd be taken a lot less seriously (assuming I got decent/good grades on my retaken A-levels) by the Unis. Hell, what are the chances they'd even accept me even if I got great grades?
So really, I just don't know if it's worth my time and effort, I know I'm young and that I have the time but how far can I go doing this? Has anyone done something like this? Any tips or help or other options? I'm willing and able to put a lot of effort into it.
I just feel clueless and terrified lol, I can't believe I was 16 five years ago.
What I wouldn't do to have the present me exist back then...