I think if you really are struggling with clutch control going automatic might be a good choice. The majority of new cars are going to be automatic especially with electric cars being forced upon everyone to get rid of petrol/diesel vehicles and some manufacturers opting for automatic only for petrol/diesel.
If you really want to drive manual then more practice is needed, you could get a driving simulator with the peddles, gear stick and steering wheel to practice with which should help to get the clutch control to where you need it to be