A mature, old fashioned and interesting gentleman who wants a long term relationship with someone who will love him til the end of her life, look after him always and do whatever it takes to make him happy. I wish I could devote myself to someone lovely who loves me back. Someone intelligent and caring and old fashioned who wants the same as I want in life! A comfortable living in Yorkshire in a nice little house with lots of love and sex and as many children as he wants.
Unfortunately, most men are immature, vain and all manner of negative or unsuitable adjectives that make me want to vomit into the nearest bin.
Instead, I will give my love to my rabbits and any close friends who want it. I hope to have a small country house with a few house rabbits when I am 40. I will be very, very lonely, but such is life. I will become a Ms., even though I hate the sound of it, purely because I can't be a Miss forever, it sounds too young.
At least with no family I will only have to spend money on myself, and I don't cost much, so even on a mediocre teacher's wage (if I ever become one
) I should be able to live somewhat comfortably. It will make me terribly sad to not have a husband to cook and clean for and look after our children, but it's okay because I will devote myself to my rabbits and the children in school.
And if I can't be a teacher, there's always prostitution. It sounds awful but whilst I am still young and perky it might make me enough money to get by in the meantime. Of course, it would be horrific to lose my virginity to a rough, dirty old man who won't listen to my cries of pain or be gentle. But if it means I have enough money to live in Yorkshire then that's what I'll do.
I must remind myself of all this repeatedly just so I know I CAN have a future on my own. I will never settle.