This is killing me.
Okay, so I'm a girl and he's a boy, we're both 17 and we are best friends. We've known each other for four years and I would seriously give my life up for him. I tell him everything and we have a lot in common with our family's problems etc, and I trust him with my life. Likewise, he trusts me because he's told me stuff that (apparently) no one else knows. Anyway, I thought for most of our friendship that this was just platonic caring for my best friend, but recently I've been feeling different. Twice in the past two weeks, we've been drunk together and he's told me how much I mean to him. It's quite obviously platonic but the fact that he vocalised how much I mean to him (which neither of us would do while sober) really knocked me for six. I now have the utter urge to see him constantly - I did before but now it's slightly different. I get the urge to hold his hand or just hug him, when normally both of us are made uncomfortable by physical contact and I would never have had this urge before. It's killing me - I see him almost every day because he goes out of his way to see me (we live about half an hours drive apart and he always drives to see me) and each time I do I feel worse. I love him to pieces but I don't want to be IN LOVE with him, which I'm scared might be happening.
I just had to get this out of my system because I can't tell anybody. I've never had such a good friendship and I would never want to ruin it.