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PLEASE READ THE WHOLE THING)THIS IS ABOUT ME-NOT ANY OTHER BLACK FEMALESeriously, i hate being a black female.
I am 18 years old.
it has occurred to me that being a black female is expensive because, unlike other races, we have to have protective styles, wash and deep condition our hair on a regular basis otherwise it will be hard to manage or break off.
I just can't take it anymore, including the DONKEY hours i spend in the hair salon EVERY MONTH getting my hair done and paying lots of £££££ to achieve the look/style i want.
It also hurts badly when my hair dresser tries to comb out my natural hair by yanking it with the hair blow dryer.
I used to love how i could rock any hair style. From braids to twists out and from twists out to weaves and wigs because it meant that i could hide my natural kinky coiled hair and not worry about having to look like a clown in it.
But........at this moment in time......
I am feed up, especially when i don't achieve the natural hair look that i want.
I am also sick and tired of hiding my natural hair under wigs, hair extensions, braids and twists outs especially when i know, i want to rock out my natural hair and not rely on these so called "protective styles" that meant to grow your hair.
I feel like white girls have it a lot easier.
Their hair can grow freely past down their shoulders without having to do all that protective styling etc.
I wish my hair could grow just as fast without having to do any special regimen.
I also wish that my parents will let me to completely shave my hair off because its clearly breaking and needs to restart growing from scratch.
With my natural......its just breaking, like yesterday, i tried to comb it and it was shedding badly.
I feel ugly right now and just want to shave it al of, so my hair can "start again".
The problem with that is my parents, they say "you will not only look ugly if you shave it off, but people will mistake you for a male.
Seriously, even my parents don't understand what i am going through in terms of dealing with my natural hair.
I am really suffering from all sorts right now.
I need help
Anyone?